Happy and Sad

There's happy and sad events this week.

I prefer to talk about the sad issue first leaving the happy event to the last.

Sad event
A small injury to the toe has caused my grandmother to suffer. Due to her diabetes and the poor blood circulation in the veins and arteries, the toe has blackened. Doc said that to be save her life, the leg above the knee has to be amputated but the operation can take its toll on her heart and might die or set in a coma during the operation. If operation is not done, the toe will dry up and fall off, the bacteria might go into the blood stream and once it travels to the heart, death will not be far.

After hearing this, it was like both hands are tied and there is no way out. I suddenly feel lost and sad. I almost wanted to cry out but bottled it. But after listening to what my aunt said, I feel letting grandma to go through the painful knee operation is very selfish. It's much better to have less pain and go off peacefully then go through all the pain and still go off in the end. I know that everyone has to go someday and I feel that the least painful death (pass away in sleep) will be most peaceful way to go. I've come to accept terms and hope that my grandmother will go off peacefully.

From here, I learnt one thing. One has to take care of own's health before being able to take care of others and also not to cause others unhappiness and worry. Too extreme, but this should be on one's mind so that even if the target's fall short, we are still able to take care of others without much problem.

Happy event
There's two though. One, I'm very happy that my chilli plant is bearing chilli. Through this, I've actually learnt that one needs to constantly take care of the plant for plants to blossom flowers and bear fruits. Its the same for relationships. It takes constant effort to sustain any relationships be it family, friends or even couples.

Two, my brother's back from Uganda. He's been away for 10 weeks. Finally, he has come back. The house is much more lively. Haha... and can help to lessen my household chores. Hehe... But its really good to have him back.

I pray for my grandmother.